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June 25, 2002 "*dances around*"

11:29 pm

I need to sleep! I just wanted to check my e-mail before going to bed. Gah. Ooohh! I was accepted to the folio. Wow, I can't believe it! Anj sent me a message on my way to school saying she had a surprise for me and when I got there, she told me were both accepted. *Yayness* I still can't believe it. I sent a message to my Dad, then my Mom. Haha. Pathetic ba? I'm just happy. I'll blog more tomorrow..I'm too tired!

By the way, visit Trinnah and wish her a happy birthday, and don't forget to check out Margaux because she has a beautiful new layout.

June 24, 2002 "To the north and back."

10:36 pm

Eack! School tomorrow. I'm thankful for today's break, cos I got to sleep in a bit. Wow, check out this site. I was looking for pictures of Italy, and I ended up at that site. Beautiful. I can't stop staring at them. I want to print them out and devour them.

I had quite an adventure today. At around 2pm, I went to my little brother's school to pick him up. His teacher now was my first teacher, ever. We went to Makati and dropped my brother off at my Dad's office in 6750 and my Mom and I went to get my skirt exchanged. Then I was supposed to go to SM North Edsa for a doctor's appointment. My tita has clinic hours there on Mondays, and I couldn't go to her clinic in Megamall cos I have classes. Anyway, my Mom and I boarded the MRT. North Avenue is the last stop, and after that we went to the clinic for my appointment. The trip back to Ayala Station was better, cos since going South, North Avenue is the first stop, we got seats right away. *hehe* Taking the MRT is so convenient. If I had my Dad drive me, it would've taken us ages to get to the mall by 5pm, and get back to Ayala by 6:30. *laughs*

I've school tomorrow. Someone forgot to miss-call me. Ngek.

June 23, 2002 "I don't know why."

10:55 pm

A surprise was waiting for me today. J.Lo jeans! *laughs* J.Lo launched her clothing line months back, remember? Well, I think it was a gift from my aunt who lives in NY or something, cos my parents handed it to me. They're so cute! Dark denim, and they fit perfectly! Thank God for J.Lo and her curvy bod..hahaha. We went to Makati today cos I needed to find something to wear to Miko's 18th birthday luau Imagine trying to find a summery outfit at the end of June! I did find an outfit, and I love my sandals, but I'm still undecided whether or not I'll wear the outfit. Ngek. Picky! I'm supposed to get my hair relaxed tomorrow at Bench Fix, but I didn't get to set an appointment so I'll just call them tomorrow. Perhaps I can go to Makati on Wednesday after school, and get my hair relaxed and meet up with my Dad so I can go home.

I forgot to mention that I signed up for ROTC instead of CWSTP, [DLSU's name for community service]. When we had to pass our reply slips during ORIENT1, Giann was sitting in front of me and we agreed to join ROTC. Community service sounds so tiring, cos during the implementation phase, you'd need to implement the project you thought of with your group, spend for it--materials, transportation, etc. Geez. And we get a grade for helping out? I don't like the idea. Besides, ROTC means you just have to stay in school for a few hours. Yeah, I guess I'll wait and see. I just hope I get through it.

He called! Geez. I sound so geeky and cheesy, but then I just logged on mIRC and then my phone was vibrating on the bed, so I picked it up. Actually I was staring at it for a bit cos he usually leaves missed calls, but then my phone kept ringing so I answered it. Gahhhh! Trying my best to keep calm, and to divert things, I told him I was using up his free minutes--pa-guilty feeling!--so after a few seconds he said goodnight.MUST.NOT.FEEL.ANYTHING. Stop it, Yam. Whenever I make little bits of kwento to my friends, they ask me if "sila pa" and I always answer "i don't know." I never asked, and I probably never will. Bahala na. As if anything's going to happen if they break up or not, diba?

*laughs* Little Nicky is on HBO again, and I've never seen it before. *laughs* Know what movie I want to see? Another Tagalog movie..Forevermore! LOL. I keep wanting to watch those kilig movies, then I end up crying over them. Haha. Weirdo! Anyway, I better go.

June 22, 2002 "someday I will know. well, HOPEFULLY."

9:52 pm

Warning: this is a long post.

I'm watching the 2002 MTV Movie Awards. Wheee. I'm supposed to be at a party right now--a joint party for Mari and Cams, two of my batchmates. Hmph. I had no one to go with, cos my barkada either couldn't or didn't plan on going. Ngek. I've known Mari for some time, and well, Cams was my circlemate in Search-In. Nevertheless, I would've wanted to go. I just sent Mari a message greeting him and Cams. Back to the awards, (I'll probably make a post-show thoughts list but I'm commenting on what is currently happening) Charlize Theron looked so pretty! Oh, and Mandy Moore too. Seeing her cropped cut made me a bit happier about my own short hair. At home I put it up in pigtails and a mini ponytail at the base of my head, and at school I either tie it back and pin the sides with bobby pins, or just hide my hair under a bandanna. Oh well.

My song of the moment? That song by P.Diddy that goes like, I need a girl to ride, ride, ride.. Not a single day has gone by without me seeing the video, or hearing the song. Anywhere. Geez. It has grown on me.

Lately I've been feeling kinda weird. I don't know what it is, really but a couple of days ago I couldn't sleep and I ended up crying!Geez. What the hell?! I found myself crying in the dark, for no apparent reason. Now, at random times during the day I get that on-the-verge of crying feeling and I have to stop it. Inner depression? What I want right now is to go out of the country and just go on a trip. Is that possible? *haaay* Basta, I can't explain what I feel right now. It's really weird!(Hold up, i need to drink my medicine).

I'm back. I went downstairs to drink my medicine and my ninong was downstairs pala. He asked my Dad to buy one of those radio-controlled helicopters for his collection. He and my Dad used to fly their model airplanes and helicopter a lot when I was younger and I'd usually tag along. My Dad pulled me in for a hug--hehe, and he told me again I'd be going off to either the US or Singapore for a master's degree after I graduate from college. I can't wait!

Oh! Eminem is performing and he still looks cute. Haha. Too bad he reminds me of someone. *laughs* College makes the world really small. Yesterday, while making my way to the beverage area to get my daily dose of Sola Lemon Iced Tea, I saw guy in headphones looking at me. His face was familiar, and I was trying to remember his name. When he passed by again, he called out to me and turns out I was right. I knew him from bowling camp way back in 1999! *laughs* What's even funnier is that he happens to be the ex-boyfriend of my blockmate. Pretty interesting huh?

I was just at Leng's site, and I saw the lyrics for 1/2 Wishing. Yipes. Here:

I feel you running in my head
and I think it won't be long
before the water from my eyes
spill upon my pillow.

Call it frustrating, call it insane..
why we long for something bigger than us.
As I look outside my window,
I look into your name.
It's written in the stars
that fill the emptiest of nights.

If I can find a way to get to you,
you know I will be free
from the loneliness that haunts me
like your killer melodies.
But the more I try to reach you,
the more I start to see:
There's nothing I can do but wait here
½/; wishing

I'll try to hate you if I could.
Maybe that'll make me strong.
I can break you if I want to..

Isn't that just so...*ouch*! Kasi naman eh. Guys (well, to all you guys who don't get tired of reading this, that is.) can I tell you something? Yesterday, he sent me a message asking where I was. At that moment I was at the Sports Plaza, making my way out of the org place. I told him I was in school, and asked where he was. Apparently he was in McDo. Gah! I half-shrieked at Kirsten, and she, knowing parts of the story about him she wanted to go see him. Since we were going to UM to find a place to eat, I asked him who he was with, and all that so we could drop by and say hi. He replied, "La pa.Papunta na. Tagal e." Yipes. When I read that, the hand holding my phone just dropped to my side. It sound so fucking stupid naman kasi! Me feeling this way and everything. Who else could he be referring to than his girlfriend, diba? Ang stupid ko naman cos I keep trying to supress my feelings tapos wala rin. I'm so pathetic! So I couldn't really pass by na, cos the girlfriend might see me and they might argue pa diba? So Kirsten and I went to KFC. After a quick bite, we went to McDo to get McFlurrys for dessert. I asked him if he was still there, and yun pala he was in Alabang na. Huh?! I think he just picked up the girlfriend. Yipes. I have to stop doing this; accepting his messages and all that. He has a girlfriend, for crying out loud. I've accepted that way back. But sometimes I can't help but think, what if I went in the other direction in the past, cos it's always been him naman, but I still chose the other person cos I feared it was just for the show if he felt the same way. Argh. But we can't bring back the past, and it's useless to try and relive it.

I don't lack sleep, I just have this urge to pour out everything I'm feeling right now. Oh. I woke up extra early today and commuted to school. I had an exam for the campus paper. It was long, and since it's the weekend, the AC units are turned off in the buildings. Yuck. After a General Information exam came the exam for the section of the paper I was joining. Ugh. My fingers hurt after, as well as my pen cos the ink slowly ran out. I don't know if I'll get in. I have an interview for it on Wednesday as well. *haaay*

On a last note, before I sit back on my bed and watch the remainder of the Movie Awards and the repeat of Sex and the City, I need to think of a gift for my friend Miko! Her 18th birthday is next weekend, and she's celebrating on the 29th. It's a luau, and besides a gift, I need an outfit. My Mom and I are discussing where I can get one. Our main choice is Makati, because my Dad has to pick up his phone at the Nokia Care Center. She suggested Greenhills, but I said no, cos the last time we went there it was full of hippie style clothes/off shoulder tops and macrame belts. Ngek. Definitely not for a luau. I'll probably end up in Makati?

*shrieks* Orlando Bloom!

June 20, 2002 "Uh, printing."

10:26 pm

I'm printing out the acetate I am going to use for my report, as well as the handouts which I will photocopy tomorrow and pass out to my classmates.Eep. I've to be in school early tomorrow cos we have a meeting with the Vice Dean. *grumbles* There was no traffic today so I arrived in school early and I just killed time in the cybernook. You can always read about it in my LJ. I'm in serious need of sleep. I'm tired and even the next three weekends are booked. Gah! I just checked my mail and Giann sent a couple of salad recipes. *yum* Her dad is one of the famous chefs in the country--well, you may have heard of him.

It turns out Iah saw me in school--yesterday while wearing my blue bandanna. Hehe. I love my bandannas now cos they keep my *short* hair away from my face. Other sightings? Well, saw a couple of basketball players already. BJ Manalo, Carlo Sharma and Mark Cardona. Last week Ren-Ren Ritualo was in SJ and in our building. Ngek. Starstruck? Not really, but I was wondering if I'd actually get to see them soon. Whatever Yam!

I am craving for tempura, california maki and fried rice from Saisaki! Cy, Jompy and I were dreaming about it on the way home. I must eat there this weekend, if I can squeeze it in. Anyway, I have to prepare my report materials and make sure I can explain it, so I'll go now. Guys, thanks for all the comments. I signed up for two orgs, TeamComm and *WG--I think I'll join 2 for now, cos I also signed up for the Arts College Assembly anyway. I'll probably join other orgs next year.

June 19, 2002 "Perhaps we all give the best of our hearts to those who refuse to love us in return."

10:16 pm

I am/I..
1. Missing the repeat of Lea Salonga's Broadway Concert. Gah. I would've gone with my Dad, but then he had to go to Singapore last Sunday so I'm here at home.
2. Took the test for the folio. I am dead meat. I wasn't sure with the meanings of 70% of the words given. The prose exam was fairly easy, but really long. I used up most of my favorite kind of pen's ink. The bonus questions for the prose exam were mostly about the lord of the rings and while I haven't really memorized any details, I answered a couple of questions. My stupid move? The last bonus question asked for the title of the the third book in the Harry Potter series. I could remember the other book titles, and what happened to Book3 and how the cover looked like but I couldn't remember the title!
3. Received the invitation for Miko's 18th birthday. Ack! She's the second youngest in our barkada, which means I'm the next one who's going to celebrate her birthday--all the way in December. She's having a luau in her aunt's clubhouse in Laguna. I cannot think of a nice gift for her!
4. Stopped by the Sports Plaza to check out some orgs. There are a lot of interesting orgs, and it's quite confusing because during our LPEP (orientation) they kept telling us to join orgs, but not too many orgs because we might not be able to go to most meetings--especially since most of them are held during U-Break. Ngek. I signed up for the *WG with Anj because it sounded fun. They would have seminars, workshops and a folio at the end of the year, and no deadlines for the folio. Sounds pretty good, especially after a rigorous exam/interview. I also signed up for TeamComm, the org of my course. A lot of us in the block are going to sign up, because it's easier to get into than the other one. *yipes* Of course, membership fees for each org must be paid and they give discounts if there are 3 of you signing up, or whatever. Pretty good idea, I guess.
5. Was craving for an Oreo McFlurry since last night, so went to get one with anj and kirsten. *yum* Haven't had a Flurry in a while.
6. Could not swallow the vitamins my mom asked me to take this morning. It wouldn't slide down my throat. I told you I didn't learn to swallow pills until 7th grade or so. I rarely get sick kasi!
7. Saw the "Josh" as soon as I got out of Miguel with Anj and Atchie. Too bad we were going by SJ and not to Velasco..*sighs*

June 18, 2002 "Tomorrow will be okay."

11:16 pm

I wasn't supposed to blog, but then my insomina is starting up again so I plopped myself in front of the computer. Sex and the City made me teary-eyed--well, some parts anyway. Specifically the Carrie/Aidan part. Geez. someone better start watching it! *wink wink* Aga kasi matulog eh! Today was fine, I guess. I had my interview for the folio and I was so nervous. I was interviewed by a guy and a girl and I am so doubtful of how my interview went. Some questions were okay, and some were unexpected, like the questions pertaining to my views on censorship, wheter or not writers have a responsibility to society and what would make my writing stand out. Other questions made me feel stupid--when did I start writing [I couldn't really expound, because my kiddie stories were about animals and all those kiddie stuff. Yeccch!], my favorite authors [I hate getting this question because for some reason all their names slip away. I managed to utter Francesca Lia Block, and Wally Lamb, although the latter isn't really my favorite] and a number of other questions on why they should accept me, yada yada yada. It all boiled down to one thing. I am not a writer, or at least I'm not a writer. Sounds pretty stupid to have that realization. Bleagh. The test will be tomorrow during U-Break so I won't get to eat lunch until about 2:30. I am craving for an Oreo McFlurry!

My Dad can't find the shoes I want in Singapore. Ngek. Perhaps I should've made him buy books from Borders again, but I told him to get me those shoes and clothes. I'll save the books for next time. I hope he can get a pair. I've been lusting over those shoes for a long time. Random thought: I'm wearing my beige bandanna right now, to keep my hair away from my face. *hehe* I look weird in my PJs and a bandanna. I'll go read until I fall asleep.

June 17, 2002 "I'm part of you indefinitely."

10:34 pm

I got stuck in traffic on the way to school, but fortunately I made it just before class started. *whew* Roadwork was being done a little bit past Baclaran, so everything behind it was in a jam. School was okay. Well, boring. I think the excitement wore off. Anj and I submitted our forms for the folio, and we picked our interview schedules. We're having them tomorrow at 1:15. Yipes. I'm nervous! I haven't been able to write anything else lately, except for my whiny paper journal entries and this blog entry. I think I submitted old material, which were all pretty crappy. The folio test is on Wednesday during U-Break, and I'm so glad we have a break right after U-break so I can rest. I left school early today, cos the professor for our last class announced he won't be in today. *yay* Finally, nakauwi rin na may araw pa!

Luwi's debut was okay. A lot of unexpected things happened to me yesterday, but I'd rather not elaborate. alam mo na 'yun! I ended up going to church twice, and I also got a copy of I Know This Much is True by Wally Lamb for 280 pesos. Hehe. Sometimes lurking in used bookstores like Book Sale gives you good materials. The book was in good condition and it was in a Ziploc bag, propped up by the store window. I haven't read it yet. I have about five more books to read.

I'm sleepy. Goodnight, moon.

June 15, 2002 "To ride, ride, ride."

11:54 pm

Gah. That song is stuck in my head, the one that goes I need a girl to ride, ride, ride..I need a girl.. Geez. I woke up at 7am to cram for the two essays I had to do. I ended up with a bunch of crap but I had no choice. My parents waited for me while I attended the orientation, and it didn't really last for a whole hour. We were given a copy of the style book. Perhaps I should study it for the exam next Saturday. We went straight to Makati afterwards, and stopped by the Nokia Care center. My Dad's 6510 was not functioning, and he needed to bring his phone with him to Singapore. Turns out he won't be able to get it until Monday, but he won't be back from Singapore until Saturday. He's using the 8210 right now. We went to his office so he could get his ticket and had lunch. I thought we were celebrating Father's Day early, but we might do it when he comes back. Perfect, cos I haven't bought him a gift yet.

I got a haircut! My Dad says I look different, because I got tired of my long-ish hair, and though it was cut differently it still looked the same. Ponytail=my hairstyle everyday. Now I can't even pull my hair back even for the slightest ponytail. I wanted to put up a pic, but I'm too lazy to haul out the digicam (besides, my Dad packed it with his stuff already), and I'm still going to get my hair relaxed. If I don't get money tomorrow, I'll get it done on the 24th.

Also, I found out my friend Luwi was in the hospital. Yipes! She doesn't have a major disease or anything, but she has to stay there for observation. I went to visit her as soon as I got home from Makati, bringing along my birthday gift for her. She's turning 18 tomorrow, and she's in the hospital! I'm consulting with two other girls about her small party tomorrow night. *sighs* I hope we get everything done. I've to finish an essay for English class, and print out my report for Sociology.

June 14, 2002 "Random teenybopper moment."

12:21 am

My close friends know that one of favorite bands is Hanson. So you can only imagine my surprise when my LJ friends page loaded, and there was link on Tiff's entry that Taylor Hanson got married. *eek!* I checked out a hanson site, and turns out he did get married last June 8 in Georgia. The only thing that made me feel weird about it is the fact that he's nineteen! He's a year older than me, although I won't be turning eighteen until December. I can't even think about marriage-- more so boyfriends, and he got married?! Hehe. I grew up listening to those boys, and it's just hard to imagine any one of them getting married now. I'd really go crazy if Zac got married too. *laughs* Nevertheless, I wish him and Natalie a happy marriage.

The thing about being a Hanson fan is that so many people laugh at you. Geez. My fanatic days have gone down, but still it sucks to have people tease me for ever liking the band. What's wrong with them? They sing, they write their own songs and play their own instruments. What classifies them as a boy band? Nada. The fact that their first hit was MMMBop makes them a boy band? I don't think so. It wasn't too long ago that someone laughed right in my face for liking Hanson. Geez. I don't know why. All throughout my stay in my old school, whenever someone would try to argue with me about liking the band, I'd just say to them my usual speech. I don't make fun of the bands/musicians you listen to, regardless of whether or not I listen to them. I respect your musical preferences so why can't you respect mine? That is still true.

I wasn't in a very good mood today, and during our break, we went to the coffee shop in Aristo. I just read my Sociology book and didn't eat or really talk to anyone until I finished. I think I must have given the girls (anj, chel, kirsten) somewhat a weird vibe, but I just felt out of it today. I felt pissed and crappy. However, today was a Zobel day. From the moment I stepped off the bus to cross Taft Avenue, I saw Monty. He was going to meet a friend at the SPS building. I also saw Carisse, Chirpy, Jay, Miko, Irene, Jade, Rubs, Xavi, Chiara, Ant, Abi, Mako, Chase, Paga, Nicco, someone I forgot and a bunch of alumni. Everywhere I went, there was someone from Zobel. Weird!

Oh, I saw Crush Boy's older brother in the library today. *eep* If only Crush Boy was in my school. Maybe next year. *crosses fingers* He said before he wanted to get a scholarship so I hope he gets one from DLSU. *hehe!* I haven't seen him in 2 months. On the same subject, the Josh Hartnett look-alike, [apparently Luis del Rosario from CSA; can anyone confirm that?] knows that some people from another block have crushes on him, and call him Josh. Yipes! Who else could that block be, but ours! I was the one who started calling him Josh. Yipes! Well, what the heck. He's still cute. *laughs* A bunch of my blockmates try to catch a glimpse of him whenever they can, but I wonder how he found out? Ako pa yung nag-start ng Josh thing!

I missed the Bench One Night Only show because I had no one to go with. Sayang! I had a really nice seat, cos my invitation was for the Upper A box. Argh. I've been suffering from insomnia this past week, cos I'd have trouble sleeping. I'd be lying down, awake for an hour or more. What's happening to me? Too much on my mind?

I have to go back to school tomorrow for an orientation with the campus paper. I haven't done the two essays yet, because I don't want to, but I have to. Yuck. The orientation is at 9, and it lasts for an hour, so I've to get up early to type my essays. They'd probably end up being extremely crappy.

June 13, 2002 "Purple and gold."

10 something pm

GO LAKERS! I left for school in the middle of the 1st Quarter, and during the Speech class, the game was about to end so I'd call my Mom every minute or two. *laughs* Good thing I sit in the back so I could crouch or hide myself. I finally decided to do a video for my demonstration speech. I'm going to do a how to play bowling video. Yipes! I'm not an expert, but I'll try to demonstrate as best as I can. The good thing about having a video presentation is that all of us were moved to the last group of presentors, which is on July 2. eeek! Now I have to get my video edited.

Random thoughts for the day(because I'm too tired to write in paragraph form):
1. Left school early because we had a test for our last subject. You could leave as soon as you were done, and I finished at around 5:10, so I left school at 5:30. I was lucky enough to flag down a really nice bus. I think it was a tourist bus, because the seats were nice and wide, and the bus was clean. There was a TV and VHS on board, so I kept myself busy by watching the movie, The Haunting.
2. Haven't done any of the two required essays for the campus paper. My hopes are floating away. Perhaps I shouldn't join na lang.
3. Found out that my friend's ex-bf is ~~Oli's~~ blockmate in CSB.
4. Trying to figure out when I can film my video for Speech class.
5. Trying to choose some Pinoy radio station for the group report in Filipino. The catch? The DJs have to speak in Filipino, so that leaves us with a bunch of cheesy stations. Yipes.
6. Tried to convince an incoming freshman at the Ateneo to transfer to DLSU. Nag-Ateneo pa kasi eh! *hehe* Eeep. What's wrong with me? About 10% of me was glad, cos I wouldn't have to deal with seeing the person around campus, but geez.
7. Wondering if anyone else has a ticket to the Bench Fashion Show tomorrow night because I have a ticket and no one to go with. My ticket is in the Upper A area. Sayang!
8. Currently watching the repeat of Game 4. I kept thinking the Lakers would let the Nets lose, so they can win in LA, but then they won today, so no big party in LA. Still, I love those Lakers. The only thing that's preventing me from jumping up and down right now is the fact that the whole house is quiet, and I'm kinda apprehensive to start shouting and everything. Late reaction eh!
9. Got accepted to Halimuyak.
Grrr. I think I better do those essays. The topics are boring so I'm really too lazy to do them. What does campus journalism mean to you? Why do you want to join thecampuspaper?". Cripe.

June 12, 2002 "How come you don't call me?"

10:27 pm

I turned off my cellphone an two hours ago, for some reason. My phone is always turned on, and even if no one texts me, I turned it off.

Early today, plans with my friends were getting screwed up. Anyway, I did end up going out. My parents dropped me off at Festi, specifically Starbucks and I ordered a Caramel Frap. It's my second Frap in two days--total wallet drainer! Grrr. I wanted to try the Green Tea frap, but I didn't want to risk spending a hundred bucks--if I didn't like it. I took out my notes for International Studies and started reading, but then Don arrived and we talked until the others came. Ang tagal! Anyway, we went up to the cinemas, and the two couples (Don and Miko, Kat and Pao) wanted to watch A Walk to Remember but since Lala and I saw it already, we opted to watch a Filipino movie, starring Piolo Pascual. *laughs* Nakakahiya ba?! We both think he's cute, so we lined up for tickets. Unfortunately, the movie the couples wanted to see was sold out for the 3pm screening, so they decided to go to Town. Ngek. Lala and I stayed, and watched the movie. The story was typical, but we didn't care cos Piolo looked cute. *laughs* One thought: ditch the Speedo-ish thing he was wearing during the beach scene! Horrifying! I noticed some typical Pinoy movie things (regular movies, I didn't count action/horror/comedy movies):
1. The female lead is usually either poor, or has a lower social status than the male lead. She's usually very pretty, and has a regular job, like a sales lady. She has great clothes too.
2. There is always a part where the leads and their families go out of town. This includes beach trips, camping, Baguio, or Tagaytay, or a resort with a nice pool.
3. The usually rich male lead has a bet with either his friends or family because he is usually gago or a player. He ends up losing the bet, and the girl gets mad when she finds out.
4. The female lead has either an equally pretty best friend, or gay friend who lives close by and is always coming over. The male lead usually has a group of his own, and one supporting actor (good-looking as well) has the most speaking lines among the group. The other members of the group aren't actors, and look funny trying to act rich like the male lead.
5. The male lead's ex-gf, or object of affection before the female lead is usually the current half-foreign, half-Filipino actress in showbiz. She speaks in broken Tagalog, with a squeaky voice and manages to track down the male lead, and make the female lead realize she is nothing.
6. The male and female lead will always meet. It doesn't matter if the situation is impossible, but they will always meet and fall in love.
7. The title of the movie will always end up as a line in the movie, and someone will say it.

Anymore things you noticed? I noted my observations from a Pinoy 'romantic' movie. Ngek. Anyway, I was feeling kinda low after the movie. Lala and I walked to Town from Festi, so we could meet the others. She met up with her boyfriend, and I went with them to the food court. When everyone was together I just felt so out of place. *pouts* I'm serious. I was feeling really lost, and I was looking forward to this day because I thought I'd get to be with the girls again. I was wrong. *sighs* I immersed myself in my Int'l Studies notes, but I couldn't do that very long. Maybe I should start hanging out with more single girls. I should keep reminding myself that my barkada gimmicks now will always be with their respective boyfriends. Geez. Should I still go? I'm the eternal wheel! I've stopped making a big joke out of it, because it's not funny. I'm sick of walking ahead, behind them, or trying to butt in conversations, or trying to start a conversation but failing because they're all so busy. Sometimes they do say a few words to me, but I miss my girls. *pouts* Maybe I should make my 18th birthday really small and ban the guys, just so I can be with my barkada. I'm fine now, I guess. As I always say, I've gotten used to it, but I can't resist complaining sometimes. Oh, you know who you are, thanks for calling.

I haven't done this in a while. Plugs: Gail has a new layout, Alla, Kaye and Mixz has a pretty purple and white layout. I have school tomorrow, and I have a long exam! I'm worried I haven't studied enough. Eep. To those having their ORSEM at the Ateneo, good luck and have fun. ;)

June 11, 2002 "Being Carrie Bradshaw."

10:33 pm

I just finished watching SATC and bam! Carrie?! Me. When it comes to Aidan, that is. Not a lot of people know my story though. I've made stupid actions, mistakes and in the process I've hurt people. Ouch. I was getting teary-eyed when Carrie walked Aidan home and then she told him she wanted to get back together and Aidan said he wanted to try out the friend thing. *sobs* Still, determined to keep some pride, Carrie just went "Oh" and went home. Then she went online and turns out Aidan is online so she swallows her pride and goes back to Aidan's place and tells him she knows in her heart there is something (still) and she misses him..blah blah. Of course, Aidan says it's not a good time and shouts "You broke my heart!" *ouch!* Carrie runs home, and then even later, Aidan goes to her place, and they have sex and after, Aidan leaves. Carrie says she hopes to be his girlfriend again. Geez. The next day he shows up and they go for a walk. *Haaay* Life. "You broke my heart" kept echoing in my mind. Yipes. Maybe I did that once, then it happened again. *OuchOuchOuch!* I'm like Carrie--in the way that she's not afraid of doing whatever because it's what she's feeling at the moment. Of course for me, I cannot erase the feeling of stupidity. It's like why did I even do/say it in the first place? So um, hopeless. The friend thing? Okay I'll try to deal with it--but honestly it ain't working for me! I try to say goodbye and I choke, I try to walk away and I stumble, though I try to hide it, it's clear.. Ano ba to?! Six, long, friggin' years. Six. Geez. I thought that maybe being faced with the fact that someone else has him, someone else ~~loves~~ him, and seeing them together would hit me right in the face and I'd get over everything, but it didn't work. What am I supposed to do? Hang around? I don't want to, but I can't avoid it. I keep thinking, what if I didn't choose the other one before, then maybe I'd be happier, but then, knowing that siya ulit, siya parin.. does it even help?

I need to mope. I need to vent. Isn't this post weird? I think I'll go watch some VCDs.

9:50 pm

I managed to get through this extremely hot day. What is it with the weather?! It's been hot for the past two days, and it's the kind of heat that burns through your skin. Yuck. It doesn't make the walk from South Gate to UM, or any other place in campus that bearable. I got messages from friends saying we should go out tomorrow, and I was wondering what movie was showing, and then I remembered it was the opening day for the Manila Film Fest. *laughs* Lala and I want to watch the movie with Piolo Pascual. *laughs* I hope I get to go tomorrow cos I still have a lot of things to accomplish for school. Assignments, a presentation and those samples for the literary folio and the school paper. While walking by SJ Walk during our break, someone from the Filipino paper halted us so he could tell us about it. Kirsten and I lied and said we were going to pass by after eating--she didn't want to join and I was planning to join the other paper. Ryan, on the other hand, took a brochure and a form just to keep the guy quiet, and then gave me the form. Ngek. I'm not good at expressing myself in Filipino cos I end up laughing about what I write. *laughs*

Woops. SATC is on.

June 10, 2002 "I try to say goodbye and I choke."

11 something later

I put up some content--leftover from sardonic. I haven't finished transferring my files, and I'll do that on Wednesday. *Yay* At least all the five subpages are working. Anyway, apart from my Critical Thinking assignment (I've decided to do it tomorrow morning) I have to submit sample material for these two orgs I am joining in school. One is the folio, and the other is the campus paper. *eep* I hate the idea of writing so someone can judge it, and apart from the samples, we have to take an exam, then an interview. *eeek!* I am fucking nervous. The last time someone said they enjoyed my writing was...I don't know! And the last time someone told me they believed in me was around February last year. *sighs* That person could care less about me right now. Dream on. Oh well. One of the essays i have to do for the folio has to complete this: "if I were a crack in the pavement, I would...". Geez, I don't know! Swallow the people who find themselves in embarrassing situations? Serve the country? Crap. I need to sleep.

On a last note, I saw the guy I always see in Church in school! I didn't think he was a Froshie too. *hehe* He doesn't seem that cute anymore, but there are always two guys to look forward to seeing in CLA [College of Liberal Arts] where I belong-- "Josh Hartnett" and the Marco Lobregat look-alike who has a girlfriend. I think "Josh" has a girlfriend as well, but what the heck. Haha. ;) Guys always drive me crazy.

/me worried about being accepted to either *M or The*LS. I heard you only join one, because that's the rule. WTF? [I also saw Paolo, the school paper editor when I was in high school.]Who else? I saw Ren-Ren Ritualo in school last week. Hehe. Anyway, I really have to sleep. Oh, and I have to put up a guestbook soon. I want to install Megabook, and I hope it'll cooperate with me.

11:20 pm

I'm watching this show on GMA and Vicky Morales went to the USA and invaded Wichita, Kansas, where the Burnhams live. She actually interviewed people who put up signs displaying the locals wishes for the family; and the rest of the Burnham family. She's actually talking to the Burnham kids, as well as the parents of Martin Burnham..Geez. It might be good journalism but I'm thinking whether or not the family felt like they were invaded by a Filipino. *eep* Earlier,the guide who led Filipino soldiers to find the Abu Sayyaf was in the evening news, and he said when they found the Burnhams, the husband was trying to cover Gracia, and the nurse was already dead. I feel so bad for their kids.

Moving on, one of my blockmates broke up with her boyfriend. Awww. I was supposed to get out of school earlier, because last week our Sociology professor announced that he was going to be out of town. However as soon as I stepped in our classroom, our class monitors said that our prof sent them messages saying that his trip was cancelled, and our class would push through. Bleagh.

I'd be putting up more content in a few days, I just have to get everything together. Okay? I better go cos I have to finish my Critical Thinking assignment--okay maybe I'll do that in the library tomorrow.

June 9, 2002 "Somewhat accomplished."

8:12 pm

I suppose I should've opened this with all the contents put up, but I couldn't resist! If you don't know who the featured guy is yet, well, wait and see. As well as what waboo means. I'm taking a break to eat dinner and fix my things for school tomorrow.

6:40 pm

Wheee! I finally got around to fixing this thing. I still cannot figure out how to do tables, so I played around with codes that I know. I've yet to add the other content to the domain, so please bear with me. I haven't had a lot of free time lately because of college, and while I have a sort of easy load [no math or science subjects for the 1st term], I get home at 7pm everyday. I try to do all my assignments--usually involves a LOT of reading and squeeze in enough sleep, so I have to cut back on Internet use. *gah!*

Today we went to the Orchard Country Club, and instead of swimming I went to play bowling with my brother Jaro. Meego and my parents went swimming, but I didn't want to stay under the heat of the sun so I went upstairs with Jaro (one of my two younger brothers). We haven't played bowling in about a year, which is pretty bad cos we took lessons before and even joined several tournaments, but we haven't been able to practice. Both of our first frames were terrible! He got five, and I didn't even get any pins knocked down. Well, after 3 games each we both realized we're so out of shape, so I'm planning to start training again. I had bad scores and our Dad was laughing at us when he arrived. Halfway through our game(s), it started raining so Meego and my parents had to stop swimming. We just had a late lunch at the veranda, and then went to buy some VCDs. I don't think I even have enough time to watch movies now, so I got a lot of VCDs. I got The Sum of All Fears, Enough, Dragonfly, About a Boy and The Divine Secrets of Ya-Ya Sisterhood! *Yay* Normally I get VCDs of all upcoming movies, and if the movie is good I watch in the theater with my friends. Weird system, but it works for me.

I stayed home na lang after that cos my parents went to some relatives. I wanted to rest, and I wanted to finish fixing the domain. I would've finished this last night, but my server was down, so I couldn't upload anything. I still have to finish this gift for my good friend Cox. She celebrated her birthday last night but I wasn't able to make it cos I was sick. Wrong timing!

June 1, 2002 "Trying to get it fixed"

what time is it?

Well I'm doing my best to fix this darn layout, which I made when I accidentally opened my Jose Pasillas file instead of the one I was trying to open. *Whew* Anyway, well, it's a huge mess. I'll fix it first, then try to finish all the content.

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